Though I always try my best to be grateful all year long, it’s this time of year I do a lot of reflecting and realize just how thankful I truly am.
Have you heard the verse from the Bible that says “And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus” Philippians 4:19. This particular promise (along with many others) got me through some of the toughest times in my adult life. I’m very thankful for God’s promises, so today I’m going to share a little more than I normally do.
As an independent girl on my own in my 20’s, I often times was not sure how I would make it until my next paycheck. Fairly typical I’m sure. Yet, it was always so incredible how it worked out. Somehow I never went without food or a roof over my head. Granted, I had my parents who would never have let me starve, but they raised me to be independent, and with that came some pride and I didn’t want to ask for their help.
Then my 30’s came with the gift of a son! I was so incredibly happy to be pregnant, and was beyond excited when I found out I was having a boy. My pregnancy did come as a complete surprise however, which caused some other challenges in my life. This is when I decided I was in over my head and I gave it all to Him…in fact, the song Jesus Take the Wheel plays in my head when I think about it.
Being a single mom for many years could have been very challenging, but because I had literally “let go and let God”, I managed through most days with a peace that even I wasn’t sure I understood. Yes, I was living paycheck to paycheck, but I knew not to worry about how the bills would be paid. We didn’t have anything fancy, but we managed just fine. Each time I felt that sense of worry wash over me, I quickly went to prayer because He promised to provide. I could rest in that.
I’m not saying times weren’t hard from time to time. Crying in my closet so my son wouldn’t hear me. Unexpected doctor bills, car problems, you know…the unexpected and unbudgeted things that happen in life. But I truly believe that because I had my faith, and God’s promises, we were just fine. He doesn’t promise to give us everything we want, but He does promise to give us what we need. And for that I’m so grateful. Again, I was very fortunate to have my parents and good friends near that were such a blessing to me…which I always believed was another provision from God.
We hit some rough times along the way for a few years, but my conviction and prayer got stronger. At one time, I felt very confused and not sure what to do or where to turn, but it was at that time I prayed even more. I journaled a lot and I would seek wisdom from the Bible. Some days I didn’t know what tomorrow would look like, but I truly felt that Christ was guiding me through it, so with that, I did feel a sense of peace.
Now that I’m older, I still lean on Him constantly, but what I love is that He has allowed me to see where He was working in my life. Where I am today is where I’m supposed to be. I can see now where things happened that helped me get here. Some very difficult things that at the time I couldn’t understand why we were being put through, that now I can see. In fact, some truly incredible blessings came from those difficult times. For that I am so grateful.
I know that many people aren’t quite sure, or do not even believe, so if my story can touch even one person and give them some hope, then I want to share. Especially this year with the hardships so many have had to face, it has been very hard on many. If I could give one bit of advice, it would be to pick up a Bible. Each day, if I start with a verse, it often times amazes me that it will be about something I am currently dealing with. God is amazing that way.
Since this goes out publicly, I am hesitant to share in depth details, but if you want to have a conversation, I would be very happy to share more of my story. I am not one to talk about my faith all the time, as it has been a private thing for me for so many years, but I do feel compelled to open up, incase someone just needs to hear it right now.
It’s comforting to have a faith that you can find peace in. I wish that for you. Sometimes, peace is all we need.
Peace and love,